Well Hey Howdy how's it going?!?!
it certainly has been a rollercoaster of a year so far, IT'S ALREADY NEAR THE END OF MARCH.MY 27TH YEAR ON THIS HUNK OF DIRT!?!?!?
WHAAAAT ! haha
Oh oh, so life update right? the last post was a bit doom and gloom because well I was pretty doom and gloom. Feelings are weird hey... haha
Um. okay let's start with health. Sooo cool new thing, my body definitely hates me 😂😂 I was in the hospital for a week and diagnosed with this wicked as, rare syndrome called Melkersson Rosenthal Syndrome!
So... totally not bells palsy like the doctors in QLD (didn't really) treat me for!
I'm on a course of antibiotic steroids to soothe my angry facial nerves because YET AGAIN I'm two face but on the opposite side... haha
I've been thinking a lot about my face and how much it really impacted my self-confidence and ability to self-love._Furr real doe_ It really took a hit.. back in the early 2000's - 2014 My nickname was smiley I actually really loved my smile. When I was hit with the paralysis and residual damage... everything took a pretty big nose dive...
I never really liked looking in the mirror and I had this constant fear that my face was going to be the barrier between myself and everyone else... Like people will take that first look and be put off before even getting to know me, first impressions you know??? :(
I always know people are lying to me when they say they can't see it... adults are good at that..
people like to sugar coat things or just avoid being honest with people.
it certainly has been a rollercoaster of a year so far, IT'S ALREADY NEAR THE END OF MARCH.MY 27TH YEAR ON THIS HUNK OF DIRT!?!?!?
WHAAAAT ! haha
Oh oh, so life update right? the last post was a bit doom and gloom because well I was pretty doom and gloom. Feelings are weird hey... haha
Um. okay let's start with health. Sooo cool new thing, my body definitely hates me 😂😂 I was in the hospital for a week and diagnosed with this wicked as, rare syndrome called Melkersson Rosenthal Syndrome!
So... totally not bells palsy like the doctors in QLD (didn't really) treat me for!
I'm on a course of antibiotic steroids to soothe my angry facial nerves because YET AGAIN I'm two face but on the opposite side... haha
I've been thinking a lot about my face and how much it really impacted my self-confidence and ability to self-love._Furr real doe_ It really took a hit.. back in the early 2000's - 2014 My nickname was smiley I actually really loved my smile. When I was hit with the paralysis and residual damage... everything took a pretty big nose dive...
I never really liked looking in the mirror and I had this constant fear that my face was going to be the barrier between myself and everyone else... Like people will take that first look and be put off before even getting to know me, first impressions you know??? :(
I always know people are lying to me when they say they can't see it... adults are good at that..
people like to sugar coat things or just avoid being honest with people.
I started this post in 2020, haha things have been a little crazy but its been a year pretty much and, i've needed to come back... Covid am I right? haha
I think I need to make a new post so i'll leave this here as is ;)
the forever weird and nerdy
Miss Hermit xx
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