Lately, there is something I've been neglecting, that I feel needs to be expressed.... thanks to a friend that unknowingly reminded me today...
The past 5/6 months have been hard for me, I've either been angry at the world... or crying till I fall asleep... it's been all about me.
I'd forgotten all about the promises I made 5 almost 6 years ago.
Sometimes, rage and grief are blinding... if that's what we let them be, but today, I was reminded of a BIG part that helps me in the construction of who I am...
Sometimes, rage and grief are blinding... if that's what we let them be, but today, I was reminded of a BIG part that helps me in the construction of who I am...
God.
the one surety in my life that has always been constant since the day I met my missionaries. God is real. that has never changed in my mind, even if my world changes around me.
I have never doubted that God exists, even when it was really hard to see if he was still there for me, and I never will doubt. no matter what is thrown my way.
I have never doubted that God exists, even when it was really hard to see if he was still there for me, and I never will doubt. no matter what is thrown my way.
but I am not perfect, I have made so many mistakes and I will probably continue to make more...
but the one decision in my life that has never been a mistake, was March 16th 2013. the day my friend Dan, dunked me under those waters....
but the one decision in my life that has never been a mistake, was March 16th 2013. the day my friend Dan, dunked me under those waters....
Because, I know God lives, I know Jesus is the Christ and son of God. and even when i'm being stubborn and have my eyes closed, I know that he loves me as I am.
Even though, I know this... sometimes the words don't leave my mind or my mouth... and I feel like that's a necessity, even if it I just write it down.
Even though, I know this... sometimes the words don't leave my mind or my mouth... and I feel like that's a necessity, even if it I just write it down.
I Know that church isn't a Show room for faith, it's a hospital for the wounded... and imperfect... it's not about who knows more, its not about who's done more. It's simply sharing in the pure love of Christ.
I'd forgotten to share. so I guess that's what this is... the beginning of my way back...
I love the lord, with all my heart... and I am not Ashamed to admit it.
it's okay if you don't agree or share the same views. I won't love you any less. But, I feel the necessity to stand again, in my faith. and bare this along side my heart on my sleeve.
I believe in the Gospel of Jesus Christ, I don't care if that marks me as crazy in societies eyes. If that is what comes with believing in God, then so be it. But I will not move.. I will stand as I am in my faith.... and it may have taken me a bit to realize what that means... but i will spend the rest of eternity finding out for myself as I change and grow..
I love each of you that has impacted my life, greatly so, the two young men who aided in changing my life forever, I can never repay what you have given me, except I will always try to do my best with what you have shown me..
love you always, thank you♥
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