Hope everyone is well!
Lately, I've been going through anxiety and depression... I figured I could ignore it long enough... but it always catches up...
I was talking to someone, a guy, someone I thought I could really like, but I don't know what it is about me that makes people shut down... everyone around me, just shuts down, they never take the time to communicate or to listen and understand. They just shove the problem at hand aside under the rug to be forgotten which sends me right off the wall into a panic attack.
Why do people only ever think about themselves ? They don't stop to think for a second about the other person?
Why don't people ever just TELL YOU what they need? why don't people ever just COMMUNICATE WITH WORDS?
ALL my life, there were expectations for me, to be a certain way.
be 50 KGs otherwise you're too fat
don't not eat your food otherwise you're going to get sick.
be good at school stuff other wise you're a dumb ass.
don't talk to much nobody likes a know it all.
be clean and tidy 150% of the time otherwise you're a slob.
Don't dress like that otherwise you're a tramp.
Don't dress like that otherwise you're a boy.
Don't talk that way, its not becoming.
Don't talk that way, you're just showing off.
Don't do this don't do that. ALL my life I've been put into boxes and things I don't understand and apparently, it's wrong of me to ask questions so I understand whats going on around me
She'll never be anything because she's just not enough, is all I've been told ALL my life.
Poor little retard can't do anything right....
As soon as someone finds out the doctors and therapists diagnosed me with "High Functioning Autism" they IMMEDIATELY label me as an incapable invalid or treat me differently like I need to be bubble wrapped.
Why? I'm a decently functioning human being 85% of the time. Why must you put me in your boxes?
I normally communicate as best as I can what I want and what I need, why can't anyone else do that?
Maybe it's just easier I spend my time by myself... I don't understand people.... when I try to understand they don't want it, or they don't have the time...
Everyone always jumps to conclusions or fires off... maybe it's a defense mechanism?
Why don't people ask questions?
People always assume that every kid with autism is the same, that they'll behave the same way..
But I ask questions, and if people ask me too many questions or make me uncomfortable you'll clearly see it on my face.... or i'll tell you..
I try to be patient with people, but why am I never offered the same courtesy?
AM I Perfect? No. I suppose neither is everyone else...
Humans are frustrating.
Buy a pup or a dog, Doggos and puppers make everything better. maybe even visit a shelter?
This goes to everyone, If you take the time to ask questions and actually listen to hear instead of listen to respond, you might find that life with the human kind gets a little easier
Because there is no one mold fits all for this lot, thats the frustrating part... I can't just pick up a book and learn about everyone by reading....
I've learnt better social skills, and thanks to therapy I can function in society better...
Maybe I need a pupper hug :S
Anyways, my brain is mush... this probably wasn't at all eloquently written at all... :S
enjoy my brain mush ~
Miss Hermit
Lately, I've been going through anxiety and depression... I figured I could ignore it long enough... but it always catches up...
I was talking to someone, a guy, someone I thought I could really like, but I don't know what it is about me that makes people shut down... everyone around me, just shuts down, they never take the time to communicate or to listen and understand. They just shove the problem at hand aside under the rug to be forgotten which sends me right off the wall into a panic attack.
Why do people only ever think about themselves ? They don't stop to think for a second about the other person?
Why don't people ever just TELL YOU what they need? why don't people ever just COMMUNICATE WITH WORDS?
ALL my life, there were expectations for me, to be a certain way.
be 50 KGs otherwise you're too fat
don't not eat your food otherwise you're going to get sick.
be good at school stuff other wise you're a dumb ass.
don't talk to much nobody likes a know it all.
be clean and tidy 150% of the time otherwise you're a slob.
Don't dress like that otherwise you're a tramp.
Don't dress like that otherwise you're a boy.
Don't talk that way, its not becoming.
Don't talk that way, you're just showing off.
Don't do this don't do that. ALL my life I've been put into boxes and things I don't understand and apparently, it's wrong of me to ask questions so I understand whats going on around me
She'll never be anything because she's just not enough, is all I've been told ALL my life.
Poor little retard can't do anything right....
As soon as someone finds out the doctors and therapists diagnosed me with "High Functioning Autism" they IMMEDIATELY label me as an incapable invalid or treat me differently like I need to be bubble wrapped.
Why? I'm a decently functioning human being 85% of the time. Why must you put me in your boxes?
I normally communicate as best as I can what I want and what I need, why can't anyone else do that?
Maybe it's just easier I spend my time by myself... I don't understand people.... when I try to understand they don't want it, or they don't have the time...
Everyone always jumps to conclusions or fires off... maybe it's a defense mechanism?
Why don't people ask questions?
People always assume that every kid with autism is the same, that they'll behave the same way..
But I ask questions, and if people ask me too many questions or make me uncomfortable you'll clearly see it on my face.... or i'll tell you..
I try to be patient with people, but why am I never offered the same courtesy?
AM I Perfect? No. I suppose neither is everyone else...
Humans are frustrating.
Buy a pup or a dog, Doggos and puppers make everything better. maybe even visit a shelter?
This goes to everyone, If you take the time to ask questions and actually listen to hear instead of listen to respond, you might find that life with the human kind gets a little easier
Because there is no one mold fits all for this lot, thats the frustrating part... I can't just pick up a book and learn about everyone by reading....
I've learnt better social skills, and thanks to therapy I can function in society better...
Maybe I need a pupper hug :S
Anyways, my brain is mush... this probably wasn't at all eloquently written at all... :S
enjoy my brain mush ~
Miss Hermit
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