MY gosh! it it certainly has been a minute since i've posted! Figuring out life and where i want to go from here since my studies are finishing up VERY soon!!!!
It's certainly an exciting time, and A LOT has lead me to where I am today. I'm definitely not a perfect person, through out my journey to get here I've made so many mistakes done stupid things...
I think coming up to this time in my life I've been thinking a lot about MISTAKES...
Why is it that no matter how many good things you accomplish, no matter how much you've changed in your life time, people only ever remember the mistakes and bad things?
Maybe because the mistakes hurt the most, I know for me, I remember all the aspects with someone...
For instance, theres this girl, I used to think she was my best friend, I had so much love and support for her... but I never know if I was just in my head or not... But for me, I spend quality time on people... time in person but always we fought about stupid stuff.... I didn't feel like I was even her friend at all.... but maybe I'm just thinking about myself....
Then there was this guy, never has someone been so burned in my memory but he never even gave me the time of day.... after I said something he didn't like... every day... I kind of wish things were different... but at the same time I don't...
If you say one thing wrong, step one foot out of line, people never forget, and maybe it changes the way people look at you...
We've all done some things we aren't proud of, when I was baptized I thought it wash away that past... but what nobody told me was life isn't like a movie, you can't win over people with some big scene.... Life isn't like the movies... I have to keep telling myself that... no matter how much I wish it could be.... That I could be in everyone's good books, that I never hurt anyone....
I never... intended to hurt anyone, in any way... but I always seem to have a way of putting my foot in my mouth... Maybe I am just a selfish nobody that doesn't deserve to have any Kind of love, maybe I do deserve all the heart break that I've been put through ...
After all, once you make a mistake or hurt someone everyone seems to turn around and hate you, or talk bad about you.... and they'll never let it go, they'll never forget and I'll just be the witch that blackened their lives....
what sucks most is that i'll never be able ti fix it.... I'll never be able to change it...
I can't change those mistakes, or fix the things and people I broke... and I guess thats my penance Living with these things for the rest of my life...
And I guess thats what I wanted to share, about mistakes and regrets...
Lately, I've seen a lot of stuff out there, people ragging on other people... saying nasty things trying to bring them down... seeing someones creative content or videos and slamming them because it's not in their taste.
Don't people understand that sticks and stones shall break my bones but words will never hurt me... is in its entirety a fallacy especially in regards to CONSTANT bullying...
Maybe one of two here and there can be deflected and brushed off.... but imagine having them barraged at you constantly, maybe there are people saying to go die... all sorts of mean stuff....
Why do people feel the need? to bring someone else down? Why must people go out of their way to bring someone else down with them?
I know i'm not perfect... But now days... I couldn't ever imagine... saying something like that to someone intentionally...
So. Maybe... take a little time to really reflect on what it could do to someone or even how you'd feel... even if they're doing something wrong.... even if you and other people feel like they deserve it....
I know I'd never be able to handle if someone took their life because of me....
So. My bad for going dark.... but it is what it is.
thats all from me tonight.
Yours,
Miss Hermit
It's certainly an exciting time, and A LOT has lead me to where I am today. I'm definitely not a perfect person, through out my journey to get here I've made so many mistakes done stupid things...
I think coming up to this time in my life I've been thinking a lot about MISTAKES...
Why is it that no matter how many good things you accomplish, no matter how much you've changed in your life time, people only ever remember the mistakes and bad things?
Maybe because the mistakes hurt the most, I know for me, I remember all the aspects with someone...
For instance, theres this girl, I used to think she was my best friend, I had so much love and support for her... but I never know if I was just in my head or not... But for me, I spend quality time on people... time in person but always we fought about stupid stuff.... I didn't feel like I was even her friend at all.... but maybe I'm just thinking about myself....
Then there was this guy, never has someone been so burned in my memory but he never even gave me the time of day.... after I said something he didn't like... every day... I kind of wish things were different... but at the same time I don't...
If you say one thing wrong, step one foot out of line, people never forget, and maybe it changes the way people look at you...
We've all done some things we aren't proud of, when I was baptized I thought it wash away that past... but what nobody told me was life isn't like a movie, you can't win over people with some big scene.... Life isn't like the movies... I have to keep telling myself that... no matter how much I wish it could be.... That I could be in everyone's good books, that I never hurt anyone....
I never... intended to hurt anyone, in any way... but I always seem to have a way of putting my foot in my mouth... Maybe I am just a selfish nobody that doesn't deserve to have any Kind of love, maybe I do deserve all the heart break that I've been put through ...
After all, once you make a mistake or hurt someone everyone seems to turn around and hate you, or talk bad about you.... and they'll never let it go, they'll never forget and I'll just be the witch that blackened their lives....
what sucks most is that i'll never be able ti fix it.... I'll never be able to change it...
I can't change those mistakes, or fix the things and people I broke... and I guess thats my penance Living with these things for the rest of my life...
And I guess thats what I wanted to share, about mistakes and regrets...
Lately, I've seen a lot of stuff out there, people ragging on other people... saying nasty things trying to bring them down... seeing someones creative content or videos and slamming them because it's not in their taste.
Don't people understand that sticks and stones shall break my bones but words will never hurt me... is in its entirety a fallacy especially in regards to CONSTANT bullying...
Maybe one of two here and there can be deflected and brushed off.... but imagine having them barraged at you constantly, maybe there are people saying to go die... all sorts of mean stuff....
Why do people feel the need? to bring someone else down? Why must people go out of their way to bring someone else down with them?
I know i'm not perfect... But now days... I couldn't ever imagine... saying something like that to someone intentionally...
So. Maybe... take a little time to really reflect on what it could do to someone or even how you'd feel... even if they're doing something wrong.... even if you and other people feel like they deserve it....
I know I'd never be able to handle if someone took their life because of me....
So. My bad for going dark.... but it is what it is.
thats all from me tonight.
Yours,
Miss Hermit
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