HEYOOOO💃✌, how are we all doing this fine Monday?👀 Well, I hope 💗I love this font! why? It makes me feel like I'm typing on a type writer... I've always wanted a type writer how cool would that be?!
ehem. Don't mind me just geeking out again 😂 the longer you're here the less it will phase you 😜😜💥💙
Sooooo, I don't really have any new life revelations to share but I am working on doing a post about something thats been harassing my brain, basically since the beginning of time, but I need to find the appropriate way to convey these thoughts and that will be my best effort not to offend anyone, but I'm not a magical unicorn so can't please everyone 👀👀 so it won't be long now, stay tuned! 👌👋
For now, just some random thoughts that have been casually loitering in my noggin and a little story :3
- I can't even express how much I love this font hahaha.👀Anyway🙆
So, I just want to say, doing nice things for someone doesn't always require the person to KNOW or acknowledge that you're doing them. Sometimes, it's just because they need it or because you love them....
Recently, I found solid evidence and proof of something I've been suspecting since I could even comprehend life.
So, It story time 👀👀
My brother and I were tight as kids, when it was just him and I before my other brothers were even a thought for my parents.
I followed him EVERYWHERE to the point one time when we were little he was walking too fast I thought that he was leaving me behind, I stopped in the middle of the road and started SCREAMING at the TOP of my lungs but I wouldn't go to mum nor would I go to dad, I waited till my big brother came to pick me up from the ground and I held his hand tight so he wouldn't leave me again... that type of followed him everywhere. He was my best friend, then the other brothers came. I got so frustrated so I would always annoy him and only him to play crash bandicoot, harvest moon, Pokemon or Mario cart with me, but he was always off with the brothers or with his friends... I figured he's too cool for me so I started to annoy him... At least that way I could get a little attention even if it was only him giving me a stank as Chinese burn or dead arm, he has still giving a little of his attention to me, because he was my favorite person...
As we got older I admit, I started taking him for granted getting into punch ups with him (well, he'd never actually hit me but I could tell he wanted to) When I got to primary school... People were ALWAYS picking on me, I'd come home with my stuff all broken and things missing and I'd always get in trouble because my parents had to keep buying me school supplies... It got so bad that it got to a point where I'd come home crying Every. Day. All I ever wanted was to make friends with everyone, I only ever wanted friends... But I was always the weird kid, I tried so hard to be cool enough... There was this girl, Her name was Katie she was this butch girl I don't remember the circumstances... but she followed me home one day and she started trying to hit me, she pulled my hair hit me in the face and took my hair tie, I came home with a fat lip and my eyes were red from crying. Can you guess who the first person I ran to was? My brother... my parents never listened... he was there when I tried to tell them... he never said anything he just looked at me and went into his room...
I spent the rest of the day in my room digging my finger nails into my wrists hoping that I would at least feel something... then one day, it all stopped everyone stayed away from me... I eventually made friends with a few cool kids... out of nowhere one day she attacked me in the park when I was on my way home she said tell your brother to leave me alone, hit me tried to size up, then walked away. MIND YOU she was like 2 grades above me... I couldn't figure out what she meant... tell your brother to leave me alone? what the heck? but I never even thought twice about it... School went okay for me after that, but I was such a stupid kid... I'll admit that, I was still quick to the trigger when opening my mouth, still quick to try and impress people... Landed myself into hot water quite a few times... I probably hurt a few people and made a few people hate me... I don't blame them I was an idiot.
I got to the new high school, dad HAD to send me where my brother went😥... I had a relatively normal school year I was Thinking I was all cool because nobody bullied me💢💥... but little did I know there was this guy, I can't remember his name something like mark, he said something to this girl called Annie one day which almost got me into a fight, she was one of these fashionable chicks who also acted like she was a queen. Less butch and more snarky like the chicks from that Lindsey Lohan movie mean girls, but thats only what I saw of her I didn't know her personally...
During lunch she comes up to me and was like, "I HEARD YOU WANTED TO FIGHT ME" in my head I was like what the hell why would I want to fight you, you'd squash me flat, big girl but what I said out loud like a little chicken... "No, I'd never fight you" but I'd honestly rather look like a chicken then get into a fight with her, she was bigger than me and she would have squashed me but I also didn't want to get a suspension resulting being buried me alive in a grave I'd be forced to dig by my parents..
It was that moment when she walked over I knew "Mark" was a big mouthed gossip making up rumors just for kicks and giggles to get in.. I KNEW I'd been betrayed by someone I thought was a friend...
Now, I've never been the best people person. I'm pretty blunt to a point it's almost rude sometimes which offends people. (So I've been told) but I'd never go out of my way to fight someone I don't know for no reason at all... Especially someone who if they got around the right way would have the capability to break some ribs if she sat on me. The only way I'd ever even think of beating on someone is if they mess with my food or if they pushed me over my limit.
The only time I'd definitely beat someone is if they hit me first and in self defense because It's never my intention to upset anyone and normally I'm like a dog with a bone, I won't let it go until I'm satisfied that the issue is resolved and the person is no longer mad/upset. It's like a baby elephant sitting on my chest till the issue comes to an adequate conclusion. (Heh. yay for anxiety... 😨) I'm not the type to get into fights for no reason, but if it ever come down to it, i'm not going to shy away from beating somebody down if they messed with me, I do NOT tolerate bullies.
I'm just a loud, geeky and boisterous weirdo who wants to make friends with everyone from all walks of life, but I don't have the energy for people who are just going to waste my time with nonsense and dramatic bull-crap, only got time for happy hearts and smiling souls <3 #PositivitySquad
Ahem, anyway... to the MAIN part of my story, My big brother, he's the kind of dude who would do anything for his family, (he puts up with my annoying behind after all) more importantly he always has my back... without ever asking for anything in return... he'd give me the shirt off his back if I needed it, he drives me everywhere I want to go when I ask even if it was 2am. My brother has always had my back, he's been my guardian angel, telling off bullies and making sure that I'm looked after...
Today, when I learned there were a few people he told to keep an eye out for me and make sure I'm alright when he left school WITHOUT even telling me... it all hit me... he never asks for anything in return, he never even tells me to seek out appreciation or to shove it in my face even when I'm screaming at him after he's eaten something I was saving to eat later or when I call him names or when I'm waking him up at 2 in the morning because I am craving ice cream, or when I'm being a whiny little baby with the "Man Flu" He comes to the rescue with chocolate and power aid / Gatorade, he doesn't even bat an eye lid or ask for anything in compensation... He's just there guarding my back as always... protecting me from the bullies and having to catch the bus.😿 We may not have a deep conversational bond, but I know he's always got my back and I never even have to ask.
So maybe, its not all about seeking recognition or praise for the things we do for other people, it's not all about the thanks or gratitude, it's about love and making peoples lives better....
I know I'm not perfect, I'm pretty rough around the edges... but I think its better to try and not be perfect, than to do nothing at all....
So, here's to all you guardian angels helping people out going unrecognized for the Good things you do... To my Big Brother for being a secret life ninja and protecting me from the nasties.
You're Amazing. The world would surely be a sad place without you.
This video <3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_99ySDoC1fw
This video <3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_99ySDoC1fw
The world is better when we choose to be kind.
Thats all from me today lovleys
Yours, the reformed but forever weird and nerdy
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